Hormones, Life and God

Good day.  I bet that sounds the best down under where they say "g'day."  Fact is that some days are hard to see more good than bad.  I attribute this to three possibilities mentioned in the title of this blog - hormones, life and God.

Yesterday was one of those days.  I woke up generally negative which is so not like me.  I could feel myself tainting the people close to me with the contagiousness of my negativity.  It would have been nice if I could have just skipped the day entirely!  Then there's reality.  And since I did all of the usual things that contribute to my usual healthy mental, physical and spiritual well being (i.e. went for a run, Bible study and prayer, etc.), it just didn't make sense that I would be so crabby.  But then when have hormones ever made sense?!  That's the point.  The irrational thoughts and resulting actions that sometimes come from raging hormones truly makes a person wonder what God was thinking when He designed women!  The Bible tells me that I am "fearfully and wonderfully made" (Psalm 139:13-14) and it's on days like yesterday where I have to believe that I am more of a scary representation of God's creation vs. an awesome or wonderful one!  Oh well.

Life and its challenging circumstances invite me to to allow what comes naturally to happen.  It's natural to allow negative thinking to surface when life is hard and much harder to stay optimistic and resist what seems so inevitable.  It feels like going upstream and against the current to me.

Then there's God.  While journaling during my devotion time this morning, it was His inspiration that led me to write words that ministered to my very own heart when I re-read them.  I was expounding on the subject of my negativity and letting the Lord know that I would fight against it with the "tools" that He has given me.  As I wrote words to this effect, the following came to mind:  "I fight by stirring myself up in the Spirit.  Listening to worship music, meditating on Your Word, and praying.  I may not get to the top of the mountain as I do these things, but at least I will not remain crushed beneath it!  Better to be sweating under the scorching sun while I climb, than to be defeated by the weight of my circumstances."

Wish I could tell you that those words were my own.  When I hear wisdom in my writing I know better!  I'm just grateful to have another way to hear the voice of God.  Praying YOU hear Him today.